[[*---Don't Catch Me As I Fall---*]]

Friday, June 02, 2006

[[new blog]]

i've change my blog ( again ) to : http://the-un-forgotten.blogspot.com/

[[ Falling On ]]*|8:33 PM|

Thursday, June 01, 2006

[["I Died A Long Time Ago, Didn't You Know?(Touching Poem)"]]

There was once a small region,
And in the small region,
Was a school,
Covered in mist,
And the only light you will see,
Is the light coming from,
The moon.
There was a gravel pavement,
That leads you,
To a double metal door.
Inside the doors,
You will see a line,
Of classrooms.
And inside them,
In one thats located,
At the corner.
You will see a pale faced girl,
With long black hair.
Whos always staring,
At the boy infront of her,
Wishing he would smile at her.
But as always,
He would return a glare,
And shove her on the shoulder,
But not hard enough to hurt.
At least not hard enough,
To hurt here physically,
But hard enough,
To damage her mentally.
Though his rejections,
Had always felt so painful,
She is never angry at him,
Knowing that this is the,
Punishment to be such a fool,
To him when they were younger.
She knew she deserves this,
But she knew that one day,
He will feel the same.
That hope was,
What kept her alive,
She achieved honor role,
Got the highest grade in class,
Just because he called her stupid.
Sometimes she wonders,
Can a guy change so much of you?
Last year,
Her mother was yelling at her,
To finish studying for,
Her math test.
But she watched television instead.
While this year,Just because of a couple,
Of stupid comments,
She works herself to her bones.
Just to prove to him,
That she is not what he believes.
One day she was walking,
Through her crime filled hall,
Then she saw it,
Her life was hugging that girl,
With the great academics grades.
Her eyes felt,
Like they were about to explode,
With uncontrollable tears.
But she held on,
And went home.
Anger and depression,
Had fully consumed her.
What does she have,
That I don't?
Good grades I got that,
Is it because she got a 98,
While I got a 96.
Pretty face,
I look way better than her.
At least don't have glasses,
Or have freckled skin.
What am I missing?
She asked between sobs and screams
So she wrote a letter to him,
Saying that she had always,
Loved him,
What am I missing,
That she has but not me?
The boy took the letter,
Read it without any emotions,
Then threw it back at her face.
And said,
There is nothing you are missing,
But you have always,
Wanted more,
You have never realized,
The uglyness of your soul.
But that girl I love,
Will always be better than you.
He said infront of everyone.
The air was tense,
The girl felt as if she was dying,
Her heart felt heavy,
So she ran from the crowd,
Away from all,
The emerging laughter.
For once,
All her life,
She felt that she wanted,
The boy to die,
And that girl too.
So she took out a shiny knife,
One she had never noticed.
And pressed it lightly to her skin
Thinking that a little,
Won't be that bad.
But as she watched the blood,
Flow out.
Her anger increased more and more.
And the deeper it went,
From a thin line,
To a river on her wrist.
She felt weak,
And lost track,
So she fell with the knife,
Tightly in her hand.
She awoke in a hospital,
She looked around,
Her parents where now where,
To be seen,
And neither were her friends.
But her desk was filled with,
Get well cards.
But she saw a particular one,
It was from the love of her life.
In the card it wrote,
You are weaker than I thought,
Just because of a few comments,
You try to kill yourself,
This card is not a get well card,
This card is where I say,
We can never be together,
Because we were meant to be,
Not after how you used to treat me
So here is were I tell you,
My grudge for you,
Will never go away.
So after this,
Do me a favour,
And stop trying to get attention.
The girl dropped the card,
Tears were rolling down,
Her pale face.
And took out a piece of paper,
Then she started to write.
The only I treated you that way,
Was because I never knew,
The feeling love before,
So I replaced it,
With the feeling I have,
Expierienced the most,
In my life.
I am sorry,
But I can't change the things,
I have did to you,
In the past.
After that,
She ripped her bandages,
And let her life's blood drip out.
The boy got the letter,
The next day,
But simply did not care,
So he threw it in the trash can.
The girl went back,
To school a couple days later.
Everybody asked if she was alright
She smiled and nodded.
Years have passed,
The boy and his girlfriend,
Were going to get married soon.
The boy invited everyone,
Of his old classmates,
All except for her.
But the wedding news sliped out,
And to the ears of the girl.
On the night of the wedding,
Everything was cheerful,
Everything was great,
Until they heard the news,
That she was found dead,
She had killed herself,
In front of everybody.
It turns out,
That she silently snuck into,
The wedding church,
And onto the highest floor,
Then jumped down,
The exact time as her love's ring,
Was put onto his fourth finger.
In her hand,
Lies another piece of paper,
That wrote,
You never noticed me,you never cared,
Not even though I nearly died,
I still moved on,
After you left me in the cold,
Still hoping you will change,
Your opinion of me.
But I guess it was foolish for me,
To believe it.
So I am going to make you care,
I am going to be seen,
Lying in a pool of blood,
In front of all those,
You have dumped me infront.
Just on your wedding day.
You never noticed,
How much you have hurt me,
So I am going to be noticed today,
Right on your lucky day.
You may think I died today,
But in truth,
I died a long time ago,
Didn't you know?
It was because of you,
And the feeling called love.
The first time you killed me,
You killed my soul,
Now will be my body.
But I guess,
Some poeple will hold on,
To grudges forever.
The boy was shocked,
Not by her death,
But that someone died,
The day of his wedding,
And right infront the building.
So the girl was correct,
He had held on his grudge,
Not even the day till she died,
And the girl held on her love,
Not even till the day she died.
The next day,
The newspapers were flying,
On the front page it said,
Harvard student,
Found dead infront of,
Wedding church,
By suicide and depression.....
Though a long time has passed,
Since her passing,
The boy was often had foul luck,
And everytime something,
Horrible happens,
He sees the face of his,
Lover that he killed,
Both inside and outside......

[[ Falling On ]]*|8:54 PM|

[[hearts <3<3]]

my heart has been sealed
for the wound in it will never heal
memories is only what i could hold
for it's me he chose to let go
life no longer shines without him
what's left is all but a dim
tears i shed for him but does he know?
i have turned into a lonely soul
his feelings has died is all i know
i love him but have to let go
tired of relationships is all i could feel
my heart will never be open but remain sealed

[[ Falling On ]]*|8:25 PM|

[[time to let go]]

It’s time to go
To forget this goal
To release this grip
That I have reap
And so I weap

Hard it seems
As my heart sings
Tears down my face
I lost my ace

Like a wild card on the loose
I felt like a goose
Funny you might think
Stupid I would say

Dumbness got me
Numbness found me

I sat here alone
In long noon
All the way so long
Thinking how wrong

Rivals mocking
Strangers laughing
Lovers thinking
And me weaping

Many questions
Endless answers
Many queries
With all worries

But where fore art thou
For it’s your love I need
And your heart I heed
Your arms I feel heat
Your hugs my heart beats

[[ Falling On ]]*|8:24 PM|

[[falling...]]

to fall in love is always easy
to start a relationship is always simple...
to build it, is always tough...
to maintain it, is 'better said than done'...
to break off, is 'easier said than done'...
to remain friends after u broke off, is never possible...
to forget the memories is 'always doing but never succeeding'...
to heal the pain within is hard and tough and never near simple...
but one has to try to heal your own heart...
the heart belongs to u...
if u don't heal it and have a space for someone to walk in,
the heart will always be sealed,
memories will never be forgotten,
the pain will never go,
and u will never move on from where u started...

people take wrong directions all the time..
if not,how do we ever realise our mistakes..
and make better choices..
late it might be for your life so far,
but it is never too late for your life ahead..
maybe through wrong directions,
you made the wrong choices..
but does it mean that through the right directions,
you would always make the right choices?
if everything seems like a big trial..
hold on to your faith..
for at least,you had a chance to live a choice..

[[ Falling On ]]*|8:23 PM|

[[fate]]

He once said Love comes with Fate,
And our Fate was a little late.
He has got his loving mate,
"But our Fate has not ended", that’s what he said.
“If you don’t mind, will you wait?”
Overjoyed, I agreed to wait,
Forgotten to ask, till which date???
Flooded with hopes, I sat at his gates,
Months and years there I patiently sat…
The gates remain closed.. i felt so sad
So sad,i could hardly rate..
Hence my Love became Hate,
Let Love be gone and off they fade.
As I live alone in this h*ll state,
You offered to be an angel soul mate,
So I told u what I’d learnt to say:
“Will you wait?
Yes?? ok,lets leave it to Fate.”

[[ Falling On ]]*|8:22 PM|

[[holding on]]

People thinks that I m silly,
To hold on something not so worthy.
They even think it’s a pity,
That I wouldn't face the reality.

It’s the feeling that I’m seeking,
If I deny my true feelings,
Then its me myself tat i'm cheating.
Hence… I keep on waiting…

Its true he once hurt me deep,
But he too gave me the love I need..
So I won’t admit my defeat,
Stand up,n dance with the music to the beat.

Yet autumn after autumns, spring after springs,
Time passes, just in a wink…
He was mine, only in dreams,
The dreams were sweet, like cookies n cream!!

One day he called, “its just another chat” I thought,
He said, “I feel for you”, THAT gave me a shock!!~
Was it April fool’s day? I realized its not,
I felt as if I’d conquered the mountain top!

He asked if I was willing to wait.
Leaving the relationship to the fate.
He hopes by then its not too late,
To make up for his past mistakes….

Dear fate, play me out not,
I really love him lots n lots...
give us the chance to b together again,
its the only cure to my greatest pain..

[[ Falling On ]]*|8:22 PM|

[[darkness]]

Night has fallen,
I sensed Darkness,
Along came Silence,
Acompanied by Lonesome.

Darkness, is there any end?
Lonesome, is it a friend?
Shh...Silence, ryhmns like a song...
Why does the night seem so long?

My lost soul wandered in Darkness,
Humming the song of Silence,
Every corner i saw Lonesome there,
Why does it follows me everywhere?

Thank God, he sent Daybreak,
fought away Darkness for my sake,
Silence song? it did not stay,
So Lonesome, too, went another way.

[[ Falling On ]]*|8:21 PM|

[[SPIRITUAL FREEDOM]]

From the beginningless time until now,

I have fallen into the realms of misery.

Again and again I have been born

Into a body of flesh and blood.

And again and again I have used it for

Meaningless work . . . .

I wander lost through the dark realms of ignorance;

Will you not guide me from darkness into day?

I stagger helplessly in the winds of confusion;

Will you not hold me in the palm of compassion? . . .

Lead me to spiritual freedom now.

Arrest and destroy all my fears;

Remove all adverse conditions from my life . . . .

Increase and further my life and work

And grant me spiritual insight now

Into the vision that transcends conception . . . .

This prayer I offer with concentrated mind,

And not in words empty of feeling.

Send your blessings to me . . . .

Help me to perfect my contemplation.

And help me to realize my nature,

Impermanence, love and compassion,

Faith, enthusiasm, renunciation,

The supreme view of voidness, the profound point;

Protect my practice and my life.

[[ Falling On ]]*|8:17 PM|

[[Freedom]]

As a tear runs slowly down my face,

I hope to die, not leave a trace,

Though birds fly across the sun,

I wish that I could leave and run,

I would run far away from this place,

These dreams, these hopes what a disgrace

I have done everything for him to set me free

Crying and begging on my knee

You don’t know how lucky you are, little bird

[[ Falling On ]]*|8:15 PM|

[[Free will: my choice, my way]]

Butterflies, all around me.

Embracing me with their kiss - like motion.

Filling me with joyful thoughts.

Free will, my way

As the winged beauties surround me

I feel as though my life is free

I could fly away and just be

Free will, my choice

As I calm down with butterflies on my face

In my hair I’m fully embraced

I’m filled with thoughts of joy

Skies in the early evening telling me choose

I say; free will, my choice

The butterflies embrace me once more

Covering my right eye and flying in my hair

I could shake and scream and flick at them

But it’s free will, my choice

[[ Falling On ]]*|8:07 PM|

Monday, May 29, 2006

[[rhythm of love]]

Someday, we will walk the same road,
shoulder to shoulder
We will surpass time and distance
Believing in our heated love

The Rhythm of love
Overflowing with kisses
This feeling will play forever,
the sweet Harmony will never end

[[ Falling On ]]*|2:07 PM|

[[friends are forever]]

In life, we face many obstacles, long and short, thick and thin, off and on. In our personal journeys toward becoming better people, we gain valuable friendships, lasting memories, and many other experiences which help us continue in life along the right road with the right people. These people are called friends. In good times, friends are easy to make and keep. If the world was pure and good, everyone would be friends, but that is not true. True friends are those that stand with you through good and bad, easy and hard times. A friendship without hard times is like a muscle without exercise. It can die out. A friendship which has endured the difficulties, odds, and ends of life will grow and affirm in strength. Remember that a best friend is one that will always listen and be ready to take the pain as well as the good in life standing by your side always.
~Carson Weber

[[ Falling On ]]*|12:16 AM|

Sunday, May 28, 2006

[[Forever Friends]]

Sometimes in life, you find a special friend: someone who changes your life by being a part of it.

Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop; someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it.,

This is forever friendship...

When you're down, and the world seems dark and empty, your forever friend lifts you up in spirit and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full. Your forever friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times, and the confused times. If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows. If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on.

Your forever friend holds your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay.

And if you find such a friend, you feel happy and complete, because you need not worry. You have a forever friend for life, and forever has no end.

[[ Falling On ]]*|11:56 PM|