[[*---Don't Catch Me As I Fall---*]]

Saturday, February 04, 2006

[[bittersweet memories]]

I hate the winter,
For it is so beautiful..
As beautiful as the memories,
I ever had of you..

But I love the winter..
Because i think of you..
And remember very clearly..
Every thing that you do..

[[ Falling On ]]*|11:03 AM|

[[Thoughts]]

Memories... will it last a lifetime?
Will memories be wash away, like something we draw on the beach washed away by the oceans...
Sometimes, I do hope I'll remember the past, live without any regrets....
Will I do the same thing if I can live again?
All from the start?
Will all my actions be the same?
I'm still wondering.....

[[ Falling On ]]*|11:03 AM|

[[fading memories]]

Memories don't last forever.
It goes with the person who carries them..

[[ Falling On ]]*|11:02 AM|

[[When today ends]]

Today we both share these hours of laughter;
Today we both share moments of endless fun.
But soon today will come to an end;
Moments will become memories,
And we will just be friends.
But our friendship will remain strong,
And tomorrow will come and I must have faith.
I will remember the things we did,
The words you like to use;
And these will be the memories that last forever.

[[ Falling On ]]*|11:02 AM|

[[Broken love and memories]]

Memories are all that remains,
Of a perfect love gone wrong,
Memories of your warm smile,
Of your soft loving caresses,
And your sweet tender kisses,

Memories so bitter yet so sweet,
Where my lips curl into a smile,
Yet the joy never to reach my eyes,
As unbidden tears streak down,

Memories of a classic love story,
That ended on a rain soaked day,
As if the sky saw and empathized,
And weeped along with my heart,

Moments we had spent together,
Will live and last forever,
As unforgettable memories,
To be played over and over,

Memories are all that I have left,
Of a love that once burned bright,
Now masked, dimmed and dying,
But it is in this eternal moment,
That I love you the most,

But it is too late to turn back now,
For we have taken a one way road,
To memories and might have beens,
And used up all our given chances,

So now, while I hurt and ache,
I will also pray, hope and wait,
For a gentle and loving heart,
To heal and revive this love broken soul,
And give a new home to this orphaned heart...…

[[ Falling On ]]*|11:01 AM|

[[Remembrance]]

I remember all our happy times
But I wasn’t really happy.

I remember all our bad times,
But they weren’t that bad.

I remember loving you
But I wasn’t ever in love with you.

I remember my heart breaking.
It’s breaking now.

[[ Falling On ]]*|11:00 AM|

[[Sonnet Of Sorrow...]]

Eternally, I thought, my eyes would shed
these tears; tears that burned their paths down my cheeks,
and drained me of such verve, I choked and could not speak
These tears were those of fear, of guilt, and of dread
You watched me in my suffering and in my pain,
and smiled your smug simper, baring your teeth,
swearing that you too hurt, only buried underneath
your poise; yet still my zeal continued to wane
for I began to doubt your feelings for me;
I felt your bitterness, your resentment, and all-above,
I resolved that these cold emotions did not entail the love
that before you declared with such vivacity;
So I broke from your hold, and I see, finally now you cry,
when you see at long last, my eyes are now dry

[[ Falling On ]]*|11:00 AM|

[[I wish]]

The day fades away as night draws near.
the phone still hasn't rang like
You promised so desperately it would.
Nothing you say is true and you
Can't keep one word you say.
I'd change time around if I could.
I finally believed you cared, then
After you realized I believed in you,
You said your good-bye's like
It wasn't at all hard to do.
If you don't really care...why
Put me through this mess?
I have feelings too, that don't
Need to be toyed with.
If I could have one wish......
I wish I could've honestly believed in you.

[[ Falling On ]]*|10:59 AM|

[[Separate Ways]]

The time has come to say good-bye.
I only hope that you understand
We are different now than before.
Our feelings are not the same anymore.

I need to be free and go my own way.
Maybe we can work it out someday.
I will not forget you and you will always be special.

The times with you were real.
I've hurt you and I know how you feel.
This part may not be forever,
Maybe just long enough to get myself together.
I'll keep in touch through the days....
While we are on our separate ways.

[[ Falling On ]]*|10:59 AM|

[[Lost And Found]]

There is a storm in my heart
It tears my inside apart
I am bleeding and I am hurt
Like a wingless little bird

Then it turns dark
And for a moment I see
The pain that was inside of me
And on a journey I embark

In search of answers
In search of truth
In search of understanding
In search of you

My guiding star in darkness
Like a little stream in the desert
Everything about you seems flawless
But that is what causes the hurt

Your perfect features do not belong to me
You do not deserve my chains
You need to live and see
What it means to be free

So spread your wings and fly away
For I can not fulfill your dream
But if you should fall one day
I'll guide you and be that little stream

So go and discover it all
And know that wherever you go
Whatever you do and might feel
The only thing you need to do is call

[[ Falling On ]]*|10:58 AM|

[[Goodbye]]

Well maybe now I should just say goodbye
You used to be my friend
But I never felt I really was yours
So maybe this is the end.
I'm different from you, all of you
Each other we've never understood
I hope that if I do tell you goodbye
That it won't be for good.
Whenever I'm mad it hurts me so bad
And you don't even care
I don't know why, I just want to cry
And someday I won't be there.
The streaks on my arm they've done me no harm
They're only made of pen
But once they are blood that turns brown like mud
They'll be there again and again.
If I'm mad at you I'll hurt myself too
But that doesn't really matter
Although when I hurt I feel like dirt
And my spirit's bruised and battered.
I do not know why it has to be so
I really wish it did not
But the way this has been going
it is basically shot.
You don't need me and we don't need we
And that's how I think I know why
These words are the ones I have to speak-
I love you, but goodbye.

[[ Falling On ]]*|10:57 AM|

[[Left alone in the past]]

Left alone in the past
Forgotten friendships buried, never meant to last
She walked away from me
Why couldn't I foresee?
Time standing still
Another way to deal, another pill
The sky is gray with hate
One thing tore us apart, your fate
Now what will you do?
Who will confide in you?
Remember the times we shared?
Remember how well we paired?
The consequences are tough
You only knew how to treat me rough
Who is next in line?
Will you, too, break their spine?
Look at what you've done
This time I will stand in front of you, I won't run
Don't bother me anymore
All you touch, you tore
What you wanted, you took
Now I glance back, I take one last look
You left me alone in your past
Forgotten friendships buried, never meant to last

[[ Falling On ]]*|10:56 AM|

[[darkness]]

When you left me all alone in the rain,
my life turn into darkness.

[[ Falling On ]]*|10:52 AM|

[[The unlucky day....]]

well, my blog in thee other account "died". Because of some ppl loh... but it's okay... hahas... create another account loh... hahas.... btw, it's not the problem of the copyright stuffs.... erm... no time to c wat's the problem loh... hhahas.... it's juz rubbish lah... lol. all the poems and stuffs...

haiz... gotta change blog again....

p/s: allan, it better not be you ar....

[[ Falling On ]]*|10:31 AM|