[[*---Don't Catch Me As I Fall---*]]

Thursday, June 01, 2006

[["I Died A Long Time Ago, Didn't You Know?(Touching Poem)"]]

There was once a small region,
And in the small region,
Was a school,
Covered in mist,
And the only light you will see,
Is the light coming from,
The moon.
There was a gravel pavement,
That leads you,
To a double metal door.
Inside the doors,
You will see a line,
Of classrooms.
And inside them,
In one thats located,
At the corner.
You will see a pale faced girl,
With long black hair.
Whos always staring,
At the boy infront of her,
Wishing he would smile at her.
But as always,
He would return a glare,
And shove her on the shoulder,
But not hard enough to hurt.
At least not hard enough,
To hurt here physically,
But hard enough,
To damage her mentally.
Though his rejections,
Had always felt so painful,
She is never angry at him,
Knowing that this is the,
Punishment to be such a fool,
To him when they were younger.
She knew she deserves this,
But she knew that one day,
He will feel the same.
That hope was,
What kept her alive,
She achieved honor role,
Got the highest grade in class,
Just because he called her stupid.
Sometimes she wonders,
Can a guy change so much of you?
Last year,
Her mother was yelling at her,
To finish studying for,
Her math test.
But she watched television instead.
While this year,Just because of a couple,
Of stupid comments,
She works herself to her bones.
Just to prove to him,
That she is not what he believes.
One day she was walking,
Through her crime filled hall,
Then she saw it,
Her life was hugging that girl,
With the great academics grades.
Her eyes felt,
Like they were about to explode,
With uncontrollable tears.
But she held on,
And went home.
Anger and depression,
Had fully consumed her.
What does she have,
That I don't?
Good grades I got that,
Is it because she got a 98,
While I got a 96.
Pretty face,
I look way better than her.
At least don't have glasses,
Or have freckled skin.
What am I missing?
She asked between sobs and screams
So she wrote a letter to him,
Saying that she had always,
Loved him,
What am I missing,
That she has but not me?
The boy took the letter,
Read it without any emotions,
Then threw it back at her face.
And said,
There is nothing you are missing,
But you have always,
Wanted more,
You have never realized,
The uglyness of your soul.
But that girl I love,
Will always be better than you.
He said infront of everyone.
The air was tense,
The girl felt as if she was dying,
Her heart felt heavy,
So she ran from the crowd,
Away from all,
The emerging laughter.
For once,
All her life,
She felt that she wanted,
The boy to die,
And that girl too.
So she took out a shiny knife,
One she had never noticed.
And pressed it lightly to her skin
Thinking that a little,
Won't be that bad.
But as she watched the blood,
Flow out.
Her anger increased more and more.
And the deeper it went,
From a thin line,
To a river on her wrist.
She felt weak,
And lost track,
So she fell with the knife,
Tightly in her hand.
She awoke in a hospital,
She looked around,
Her parents where now where,
To be seen,
And neither were her friends.
But her desk was filled with,
Get well cards.
But she saw a particular one,
It was from the love of her life.
In the card it wrote,
You are weaker than I thought,
Just because of a few comments,
You try to kill yourself,
This card is not a get well card,
This card is where I say,
We can never be together,
Because we were meant to be,
Not after how you used to treat me
So here is were I tell you,
My grudge for you,
Will never go away.
So after this,
Do me a favour,
And stop trying to get attention.
The girl dropped the card,
Tears were rolling down,
Her pale face.
And took out a piece of paper,
Then she started to write.
The only I treated you that way,
Was because I never knew,
The feeling love before,
So I replaced it,
With the feeling I have,
Expierienced the most,
In my life.
I am sorry,
But I can't change the things,
I have did to you,
In the past.
After that,
She ripped her bandages,
And let her life's blood drip out.
The boy got the letter,
The next day,
But simply did not care,
So he threw it in the trash can.
The girl went back,
To school a couple days later.
Everybody asked if she was alright
She smiled and nodded.
Years have passed,
The boy and his girlfriend,
Were going to get married soon.
The boy invited everyone,
Of his old classmates,
All except for her.
But the wedding news sliped out,
And to the ears of the girl.
On the night of the wedding,
Everything was cheerful,
Everything was great,
Until they heard the news,
That she was found dead,
She had killed herself,
In front of everybody.
It turns out,
That she silently snuck into,
The wedding church,
And onto the highest floor,
Then jumped down,
The exact time as her love's ring,
Was put onto his fourth finger.
In her hand,
Lies another piece of paper,
That wrote,
You never noticed me,you never cared,
Not even though I nearly died,
I still moved on,
After you left me in the cold,
Still hoping you will change,
Your opinion of me.
But I guess it was foolish for me,
To believe it.
So I am going to make you care,
I am going to be seen,
Lying in a pool of blood,
In front of all those,
You have dumped me infront.
Just on your wedding day.
You never noticed,
How much you have hurt me,
So I am going to be noticed today,
Right on your lucky day.
You may think I died today,
But in truth,
I died a long time ago,
Didn't you know?
It was because of you,
And the feeling called love.
The first time you killed me,
You killed my soul,
Now will be my body.
But I guess,
Some poeple will hold on,
To grudges forever.
The boy was shocked,
Not by her death,
But that someone died,
The day of his wedding,
And right infront the building.
So the girl was correct,
He had held on his grudge,
Not even the day till she died,
And the girl held on her love,
Not even till the day she died.
The next day,
The newspapers were flying,
On the front page it said,
Harvard student,
Found dead infront of,
Wedding church,
By suicide and depression.....
Though a long time has passed,
Since her passing,
The boy was often had foul luck,
And everytime something,
Horrible happens,
He sees the face of his,
Lover that he killed,
Both inside and outside......

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